forbidden

i really don't know how to start this entry..
my mind is currently taken by a storm of emotion rushing from my heart to me head.
i know this is not right but i can't help it.
its a surprise.
i thought its just a simple "friendship", but why all of a sudden, it bacame this big.
so big that its almost so hard to hide.
i can feel others can also sense what between us and i know that's bad.
this is such a complication but i feel the drive and willingness to stand for what i want.

as early as this time, i'm beginning to fall.
now i'm looking forward to seeing him each night to kiss his face and hold his hand.

it started with simple things, and don't where it will lead us.
only thing i'm sure of is that i'm happy.
happy with him.
it may be forbidden,
but i love him.

ambisyosa

music: kamikazee: ambisyosa
mood: sleepy
lss: anthem of our dying day

hay, rest day, no show si TL! kaasar. managinip daw ba na mega close kami. hay naku kapos na nga sa tulog pero may panahon pang managinip.

ceasefire na ang breakouts sa face ko. thanks sa gelowyn soap na kahit mahapdi at parang sinisilaban ang mukha ko, at least may nahita ako.

feel ko girl talaga ako nitong mga nakaraang araw. as in, skinny jeans, capris, cropped jacket at skirt ang drama ko.

Can't wait for Nov. 8, i'll be getting my new Motorola Razr V3X,. I'm planning take a picture of him as my first shot. Thing is, buboo is in s'pore. pano kaya yun?

We went to the cemetery earlier. Post "undas" celebration. Ika nga eh "better late than never". Bka hilahin ako sa paa ng mahal kong ina pag hindi ko sya binisita e. takot pa naman ako sa ganun. Sa totoo lang nararamdaman ko ang presence nya this past days, yung parng biglang malamig kahit yung iba naiinitan. tapos yung lamig na sagad sa buto! aWW Creeeeppyy!!

burst out

good day fellas! i'm back to blogging....

last friday, meand my father had a heated conversation that led to an argument which i myself didn't really thought that it'd be that BIG.

11:03am- i was starving after cleaning up my room and collecting all the waste and used papers that has accumulated over years. i decided to feed my self with my fave tuyo ng tomatoes. i was occupied with slicing my food when an unexpected question blurted from mydad's mouth: "what are the 7 sacraments"

"what??, you're serious with that? you're really asking me in the middle of my meal?. i don't have a choice buty to give an answer, unfortunately, he didn't like what i said. and that was it. he began saying a loyt of things including my membership to this religious group, he said it was nothing but a waste since i don't live like one. i was going to keep quiet and let him pass out until he mentioned about by icamite education...the hell!! you really want me to tick like a bomb do you?

moments after, i blasted. i can only take so much you know? i poured my heart out with all the things i wanted to say. on the other side, maybe that's what i always wanted to happen all along, to speak my mind out. healthy isn't it?

welcome backpotchay

hello fellow bloggers!
grabe it was 7 months since the last time i updated. wow, i've graduated already. degree holder na ata 'to ha! so yun. i've been hired in this computer company. i accepted the job, thinking that it would be a good source of work experience. after 3 days, i realized, i'm not enjoying myself. i know myself and if i find something dragging, well i therefore quit before it gets too far that i can't take anymore.

back to school blues...

a couple of days from now, it's back to PLM. My last second sem, hopefully. i'm bugged with love problems, it is so not me! i am not this love guru and i'm clueless. i guess it's just a fuzz. am i assuming or am i just crazy over nothing? don't really thing i'm in love, maybe i'm overwhelmed with the attention that i'm unexpectedly getting from him. whatever it is, i know it made me happy. it made me realize what else am i missing on him, and made me want to get to know him more. i want to tell him a lot of things but i don't know how or when to start. should i go on with this? i'm afraid to fall on him cause i don't know if he'll be there to catch me. i know he cares about me but does he care like i really do?

just checkin'

ummm for the longest time, i haven't even visited this blog. school's out (finally!) and i need to get started with my thesis. grades will be given tomorrow. if you could just see how i cross my fingers. i hope shan's right. i hope i hope. i miss my kamote friends, i haven't seen them since the 9th of september. i miss rayms and the crew! ohhh! i'm in love na naman???!!!

all piled up!

histo slides, long quiz, assignments, and whole lots of burden! that's what keeping me up all night!it felt like i've been away for a very long time. i miss my pc soo much! what's worst is that after you have done everything, you'll end up lost anyway! haiiiii. i think i need a head check. my mind needs some straightening!